For the Few People Whose Opinions I Actually Do Care About

[alt_susan]

I refuse to write this over in Brown's journal because I haven't got to explain myself to her.  Well, really I haven't got to explain myself to anyone, except grownups.  But all the grownups at Hogwarts already know all about my family and my blood, I think.

It isn't a secret really, I just don't like to bring it up if I don't have to.  But anyone who really wanted to could find out.  About my great-aunt, and about my blood too.  Like I said before, if I really didn't want anyone to ever know, I wouldn't have invited Megan to visit over hols. Maybe my reasons for not talking about it weren't good reasons, or maybe they were, but they didn't have anything to do with wanting to lie or dece desi hide the truth from people.   If you're one of the people I care about, you probably already knew that, though. 

This might seem strange to some people, but being a half-blood (well, almost a quarter blood really) wasn't that important to my life until I came to Hogwarts.  I mean, I always knew it was extra-important to behave and get good marks and keep my he because some people would always be expecting me to do badly, but that was about all.  And it isn't as if I ever even knew any one who knew a Muggle; it was my grandmother on my mum's side who was, you know, and she was ki died years and years ago when my mum was still a little girl. 

People just assumed I was pure, and after awhile it got awkward, trying to think of a time to bring it up.  I mean, when your talking to someone, is there ever a good time to say, "Oh in case you didn't know I'm a half blood."  There isn't.

And I didn't realize how lucky I was, until I came to Hogwarts, and that made it even harder, to say something. Because I felt bad about having things other people didnt have when I wasn't any better than them. That's all I want to say about it and really all that I want to say about anything for awhile. 

It's funny; when I first started Hogwarts I didn't talk to people much until my housemates convinced me to start.  Now I think I should have stuck with not talking to people.

That would make things so much simpler. 

Comments

[alt-sinistra.livejournal.com]

Miss Bones -

When I was in school - and in your house, as you might know - one of my prefects said something to me that's stuck.

She reminded me that we can't pick our families, but we can pick our friends. More than that, we have control over how we treat all the different people in our lives - family, friends, housemates, yearmates, people we like, people we can't stand.

People think about the stubborn loyalty as a Hufflepuff trait (and it is, of course) but a certain kind of tolerance should be in there too, if someone's trying hard to do the right thing the right way, as you have been doing here.

It's regrettably not something everyone understands, but in my experience, true friends - those who honestly care for us - will stick by us even when unpleasant things come out.

[alt-susan.livejournal.com]

I didn't expe I don't k Thank you, Professor. I want to do the right things, but sometimes it's hard to know what they are.

It isn't like in books, where the hero just seems to know the right thing to do because he's the hero.

[alt-draco.livejournal.com]

Oh god, Bones. I've got a tiny violin somewhere with your name on it.

[alt-susan.livejournal.com]

I didn't write this for you Malfoy.

[alt-draco.livejournal.com]

What a relief.

[alt-millicent.livejournal.com]

i think you shud tell people when you met them.

maybe like a sign on you so people know