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alt_susanEd. Eddie My (very tall these days) little brother.
I still find it hard to believe he's gone, even though I saw his him
We were so close as kids, we did everything together and Mum would bellow our names like they were one word when it was time to come inside.
I missed him (and all my sibs) so much my first year. And he was thrilled to be sorted into Gryffindor when he came.
I was happy for him too, as he was so obviously well-suited, but I'm also sad now because there are so many day-to-day memories of him that I don't have.
Ed loved a laugh, a good prank, as long as no one got hurt. Fred & George, he thought you two were brilliant!
And people (sometimes even me) could mistake that for being irresponsible, but when he was made Prefect, he took it pretty seriously. He hated bullying and did everything he could to put a stop to it.
He still kept all his old Martin Miggs comics under his bed at home.
He loved Quidditch and some of my favourite memories are of the way we used to play when we were home for hols.
It was hard for him to keep good news to himself--it was sort of a game with him and Carrie for her to tease him into telling her what her Christmas present was every year.
He grew up a lot, these past couple of years, but I couldn't stop seeing him as that hotheaded kid.
And I can't help wondering if he might still be alive if I'd trusted him a little more.
It was Megan's birthday today.
I still find it hard to believe he's gone, even though I saw
We were so close as kids, we did everything together and Mum would bellow our names like they were one word when it was time to come inside.
I missed him (and all my sibs) so much my first year. And he was thrilled to be sorted into Gryffindor when he came.
I was happy for him too, as he was so obviously well-suited, but I'm also sad now because there are so many day-to-day memories of him that I don't have.
Ed loved a laugh, a good prank, as long as no one got hurt. Fred & George, he thought you two were brilliant!
And people (sometimes even me) could mistake that for being irresponsible, but when he was made Prefect, he took it pretty seriously. He hated bullying and did everything he could to put a stop to it.
He still kept all his old Martin Miggs comics under his bed at home.
He loved Quidditch and some of my favourite memories are of the way we used to play when we were home for hols.
It was hard for him to keep good news to himself--it was sort of a game with him and Carrie for her to tease him into telling her what her Christmas present was every year.
He grew up a lot, these past couple of years, but I couldn't stop seeing him as that hotheaded kid.
And I can't help wondering if he might still be alive if I'd trusted him a little more.
It was Megan's birthday today.
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Date: 2015-05-22 04:22 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2015-05-22 04:29 pm (UTC)If you were here & not in Dover, I'd be tempted to suggest going for a flight.
The world looks a little better from up there, somehow.
ORDER ONLY
Date: 2015-05-22 05:03 pm (UTC)I'll be back by dinner if you want to get a pick-up game together.
Re: ORDER ONLY: Private Message to Susan Bones
Date: 2015-05-22 05:03 pm (UTC)you let any of us know if you need to talk it out. right?
Re: ORDER ONLY: Private Message to Susan Bones
Date: 2015-05-22 05:12 pm (UTC)And I can see so clearly how that wasn't her fault at all, but for myself...
And Mr L--I'm so, so sorry about Neville.
Re: ORDER ONLY: Private Message to Susan Bones
Date: 2015-05-22 05:24 pm (UTC)me too.
and that's the way these things go. we're always harder on ourselves. and we spend time thinking through things we can't go back and change, which doesn't help anyone.
it's hard. no mistaking it.
way I figure, you've got people who'll love you even though you don't much feel good about yourself right now. just make sure you let them. makes all the difference.
in the chaos of battle, who lives, who dies, it's one part timing, one part talent, and one part sheer bloody luck. and that last part is the thing that keeps us up nights, because it's something that was out of our hands.
Re: ORDER ONLY: Private Message to Susan Bones
Date: 2015-05-22 05:30 pm (UTC)I'll do my best to believe you because I know you're--whatever the complete opposite of full of bollocks is.
But it's hard.
Re: ORDER ONLY
Date: 2015-05-22 05:08 pm (UTC)Everyone' s been working so hard, we could all do with a bit of a holiday.
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Date: 2015-05-22 04:51 pm (UTC)It was.
I'm sorry about Ed, Sue.
Private Message to Ernie
Date: 2015-05-22 05:17 pm (UTC)She had this huge hamper full of stuff from the Stretton's Bad Jam cupboard and she was going to host a party after N.E.W.T.s. She was well chuffed that Harry liked the idea, too.
The dorms feel so empty right now. Did you ever find Fang?
Re: Private Message to Ernie
Date: 2015-05-22 05:26 pm (UTC)He's been keeping me company at the graveyard. Figures that bloody cat would enjoy graveyards.
and the jam
sounds like something she would've done.
NEWTs. Huh. Seem sort of pointless now, don't they?
Re: Private Message to Ernie
Date: 2015-05-22 05:53 pm (UTC)Just thinking that Megs loved how strange and fierce and grumpy he was with everyone but her.
D'you think she'd like if we shared out her food somehow?
It'd feel strange having her party without her, though.
Re: Private Message to Ernie
Date: 2015-05-22 06:01 pm (UTC)And yeah. It'll feel strange for a while, I reckon.
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Date: 2015-05-22 05:33 pm (UTC)I've got an hour of breathing room. Want to go for a walk and chuck rocks at the squid?
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Date: 2015-05-22 05:58 pm (UTC)I'm sorry about the business, but I think if anyone can come back from nothing, it's you & Fred & George.